Holiday

We are off for a weeks holiday up to the Scottish highlands on Saturday. It’s our first proper holiday in nearly five years and I am so looking forward to it.

The plan is to stay in a holiday cottage which is right on the coast near the beach. I am desperate to visit Dun-Robin castle again, we went there a long time ago, it’s an absolute fairy tale of a place, a dream wedding location in fact!

During our holiday i am hoping we will have time to spend some quality time together, it’s my fertile time of the month so i am hoping being away and relaxed will help us to make our baby. A Scottish baby!

I have so much to do between now and when we depart, not only have i got to do all the packing and sort the house out i need to go shopping, sort the dog out, check the fish tanks and make sure there’s enough stock in for my family to come into the house and look after my cat whilst we are away. Nightmare!

I am not alone – My fight for a baby.

So we have just finished our first official TTC cycle using OPKS, BBT temping etc. We have been TTC for almost a year now, I have joined a gym to help me lose weight and become fitter and we are both eating healthier now too. I think i might even splash out on some pre natal vitamins as well this month. But what are the chances of an overweight woman in her mid 30’s managing to conceive. Slim to none I have been told.

Today is cycle day 4 so 5 more days before i break out the OPKs again. I find myself sitting here staring at this computer and all i can think of is how women became mothers before all these monitoring inventions and fertility interventions were available.

I am desperate for a child and will endure any invasive procedure I must which is very out of character for me, I am shy and retiring, the modern day shrinking violet. However, when it comes to my dream of being a mum I will let those doctors poke and prod as much as they need.

So this cycle we will be away on holiday for my fertile phase so I am hoping that being relaxed and on holiday may help us.  I have been doing the Clear Blue fertility study for the last month and i have to admit the peeing in a hat first thing in the morning for the last month is really beginning to wear thin now. Only 5 more days to go anyway.

I often find myself reading forum posts of women in similar circumstances to I and wonder how on Earth do they remain so positive? Answers on a postcard please.